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Fragments of Rose-Colored Nothingness

~ dreamsinalaska ~ 10 Comments

It’s not complicated anymore.  It’s over.

I took off my rose-colored glasses today.  And then I stepped on them.  And then I beat them with a hammer.

After almost three years, my head and my heart are in unison. Their teamwork invaluable to my quest.  They both feel heavy, but I know they will regain their strength.  Not only have I chosen a  different path, I’ve begun my new journey.

My journey without you.

My heart hurts.

Tonight is hard.
Tomorrow will be worse.
The day after, even worse.

But I know –
I will eventually find peace.
I will eventually find contentment.
And then I will find myself.

A New Sunday

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I pulled up the blankets, and tucked in my head
Determined to not have to get out of my bed.

I silenced my phone, and turned of the dings
Doing my best to not think of a thing.

I laid in a sunbeam, all snuggled within
Avoiding all moments of thinking of him.

With each passing moment,
My confidence raged.

Somehow, someway
I knew I’d survive this day.

I glanced at my phone, and then looked away
Avoiding the moment of contact and pain.

He continued to wait, selfish motives in place
Yet under my covers, I failed to engage.

Hiding from life, is sometimes ok
Sometimes you just need to get through the day.

I’ll grow up tomorrow, and move on my way
But today on this Sunday, I just need to fade.

 

Just Jot It January

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